Yesterday, I started writing a post entitled, New Year, New Possibilities. It was positive and upbeat. However, partway through my writing there were a few interruptions and things that needed my attention.
At some point I began to feel drained. Then something a little more happened. My heart began to flutter, my chest felt tight, I felt sick to my stomach. These are not feelings I usually have.
I tried to walk it out. I stepped outside for fresh air. I sat with my plants and meditated. After a bit of meditation I did indeed feel better. Yet, throughout the day feelings of unease and anxiousness returned.
Eventually, I surrendered. I knew I was not going to be productive and gave up any expectations to be. Instead I baked cookies. I put on music. I had a bath. When dinner time came I decided I didn’t want to cook dinner, so I didn’t. Instead I made a sandwich and popped frozen French fries in the oven. I spent the even listening to an audiobook, then finished my day with a guided meditation.
Today I woke up feeling refreshed and inspired. Today any frustrations or anxiety I had are gone. I feel myself again.
Bad days happen. That’s okay, especially right now as we deal with the second wave of the pandemic.
Bad days happen, even though it is a new year and all around us we see the promotion of new goals, new opportunities, new possibilities.
I promote all those ideas. Yet, life is more than optimism and positive thinking and some days we will have bad days.
So be kind with yourself. Nurture yourself. Nourish yourself with activities that you enjoy.
Sure there’s lots of things we want to do in 2021, but we can do them tomorrow when we’re feeling a little better.